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Tuesday, August 28th, 2007
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10:15 pm - +TRA LA LA LA LA+
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things are going good at the mo.
dont wanna say too much, dont wanna jinx it.
hellogoodbye & london shenanigans with Kat were awesome. i got a hug from Forrest who ive got the HORN for. we hit Madame JoJo's for some dancey frolicks afterwards. 3 in my favour (right Kat) Geeky boy was cuuuuuuuuuute! I have no shame.
I also fell asleep with a choccy bar in my hand and ended up covered in it, unbeknown to me until Kat pointed it out - ALL OVER MY FACE!!!!
we had sushi, shopping & a fight with a complete wanker "THIS IS LANDAN BABY GIRL"
AYE FUCK OFF YOU TOSSER!!!! and im from Sunderland and idiots like that scare me NOT!
soooooooooo going to hellogoodbye in newcastle in december.
Amsterdam with Laura & Ashley next thursday *OH YEA*
hope peoples are good
xLx
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| Thursday, June 14th, 2007
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8:32 pm - God this breaks my heart.............
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The Most Beautiful & Inspiration Man
Makes me feel better watching him while im going through what im going through. And im not gonna bog people down with my meger shit!
current mood:  crushed
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| Tuesday, June 12th, 2007
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1:27 am - Looks That Kill <3
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Whats-a-cracka-lackin!!!!
Pre-Crue Postage!!
After a lovely hourly convo with Kat, taking all kinds of shite about the years that we've known each other. Which was funny. But im sure we shoulda been arranging tomorrow, haha! Ah well, all in good time. God i'd forgotten all the stuff with got upto on tour with the Dolls. Craaaaaaaaaaazy Boys. Going to gigs makes me miss the boys so much. Spesh my lil Sparkles! Olde but a goodie.
So im about ready for sleeps.
Gotta charge le fone & sidekick and then i'll hit the sack.
Im not overplanning like i used to. Im just gonna see what happens when i wake up. See what i feel like doing -to wash my hair, or to not wash my hair - that is the question!?!?!?!
Who can truely be arsed with that.
WE shall defo hit Starbucks tomorrow & YO SUSHI! Yum. Shops are a given. Urban Outfitters, MAC & Topshop, hehe. Must remember fishnets Yo!
I really hope Kats dress comes on time.
My Heart Shaped Glasses came today. Im talking about the ones you wear. Not the MM song. Wouldnt fancy wearing that on my face. Not when it's covered in Evan-Jiz! Filth!
Ok im waffling.
See you there if your there people.
If your expecting the fat girl from 4 years ago. Your never gonna find me. Keep on looking.
xLx
current mood:  bouncy
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| Saturday, June 2nd, 2007
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5:05 pm - 10 Days til Crue
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Sorry i havent been online much of late.
I dunno why like.
So im sitting updating the old ipod at the min.
Gonna get ready soon. Party at Hallgarth Manor for my friend Mary's Daughter's Wedding. Woohoo!
I cant buuuuuuuuulieve i missed JLC & CARR on the Friday Night Project last nite.
Andy picked me up and we went to meet up with Lesleyann & Mr Single Jingle Ross.
That was the 1st time i saw him in almost 2 weeks. He wanted a blow job - how cheeky.
NO I DIDNT!!!! Hahaha!
So it's 10 Days til im in Mancland with our Kat. YEY!
Need to hit up MAC for some supplies. Shall do next weekend.
Ok so im gonna finish downloading MR Osbourne's new single & have a shower
Love you all!
xxxx
current mood: excited
current music: Auf Der Maur
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| Monday, April 30th, 2007
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12:43 am - Fuck this is hilarious - with no offense intended
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DARE To Be Groupies Stats
| Formed: |
29th April 2007 |
| Split: |
31st July 2013 |
| Best Album: |
‘Bryony Lexemic Schemer Patrols’ 5/10 in the NME |
| Best Single: |
‘Hedged’ 8/10 in the NME (Single of the Week 28th November 2008.) |
| Records Sold: |
641,624 in total (300,844 albums, 340,780 singles). |
| Reputation: |
Under-rated |
| Groupies: |
gothmother’s Messianic Complex is getting out of hand. Recently they forced cjmurderdoll to sign up to their ‘Cocks For Christ’ campaign at knifepoint. |
| Other |
In a press release DARE To Be Groupies manager jdd responded to recent
criticism over the band’s song ‘Alts Footings Pendent’ by calling the general public a bunch of tone deaf cunts. |
DARE To Be Groupies Member Profiles
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jdd
When 100 people were asked to provide a statement describing jdd talents, 99 responded
by saying that listening to jdd was like ’shagging a cactus’
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razorbladexkiss</p>
Things are looking particularly grim for razorbladexkiss after Bono mentioned that the DARE To Be Groupies guitarist was an influence to both him and U2. razorbladexkiss is now a suicidal wreck. |
| tatakuatama
It is fair to say that tatakuatama is a stroppy old bastard. They’ve threatened to pack DARE To Be Groupies in after they received a death threat from the ghost of Mother Thersea who reportedly said in a whispered tone “I’m trying to rest in piece here yer prick! Cut with the bollocks before I smear yer pod in shite!” |
cjmurderdoll
cjmurderdoll made Moe Tucker seem like the bastion of rhythm. |
wikkedmickey
wikkedmickey is to a keyboard what the Pope is to sexual liberty. A bastardin menace.
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Single Releases
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Title |
Date |
| 27 |
Eaglet Limonene Balmier Repasses Busbar Posture |
Jul 2007 |
| 37 |
Alts Footings Pendent |
Aug 2007 |
| 78 |
Goggly Foozler |
Nov 2007 |
| 61 |
Plisse Elodea Mottoes Schism Inarches Bracing |
Dec 2007 |
| 32 |
Abaser Upclimbs Violated Twiglike Cobbier |
Nov 2008 |
| 21 |
Hedged |
Nov 2008 |
| 20 |
Tore Misacts Ordainer Editions Oolite Tinnitus |
Jan 2009 |
| 16 |
Numbles Potlines Prunus |
Apr 2009 |
| 9 |
Atomizer Curst Gushing Venously Scarier Midspace |
Jul 2010 |
| 6 |
Straggly Elated Arrogant Sienite |
Oct 2010 |
| 14 |
Retinol Maillots Preed Sepoys Drumlike Filmsets |
Dec 2010 |
| 13 |
Heptane Redial Overbite Upswept Holism |
Dec 2011 |
| 20 |
Swoon Gapping |
Mar 2012 |
| 16 |
Afore Covertly Kaif Aglitter Teethed Steamers |
Mar 2012 |
| 19 |
Cocobolo Thraw Grimaced Cyanids |
Jun 2012 |
Album Releases
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Title |
Date |
| 36 |
Bryony Lexemic Schemer Patrols |
Apr 2007 |
| 66 |
Dactyls Canker |
Sep 2008 |
| 11 |
Enceinte Pashadom Widest |
May 2010 |
| 15 |
Scarper Opiumism Boracite |
Nov 2011 |
northern ireland’s worst
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12:32 am - Dylan / Joey - APRIL 26th 2007
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(This didn't post originally - stoopid lj)
Today's my friend Dylan's 2nd memory.
Every year it just still seems to unreal to believe.
I didn't think it'd hit me this time as much as it did last year.
But it did.
Seeing memorials in the paper just knocked me for six.
I miss him terribly.
xxxxxxxxxx
And also, Joey's 32 today.
And going on tour with Korn.
How dare he!!!!!!
Hahahaha!!
current mood:  restless
current music: Goldfinger - 99 red balloons
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| Sunday, April 29th, 2007
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11:29 pm - IT'S LIKE YOU GLOSS YOUR LIPS WITH GLUE
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The 1st week back to work was fun.
The cunt of a manager from the next office over tried to get me into trouble.
HA - fuck her!
Everyone haters her in her office and in mine.
Cheek!!!!
Spent the earlier hours of Saturday morning conversing with Kat
"Think austrailian, Drink austrailian" - til 3am.
It was mad.
She's gotten me a ticket for Motley Crue in June.
Shes so luuuuuuuuuuuuurvly and i do intend on doing something nice for her too. hehehehehehehe!
Cos the woman isnt gonna lemme pay her back.
OPERATION V.I.G
Also spoke to Lucy (hilikus) for the first time in ages.
It was nice to catch up a little.
Glad she's still got her spark.x
P.S - cant wait to see if he creams his pants lmao
Went to meet Pan (peter) on saturday.
He had a picnic planned but the weather was canny shite so we had to change plans.
It's his way of making things upto me, sweet.
We ended up going back to his then he took me out later to Starbucks then The Gate in Newcastle to see "Blades of Glory" - SOOOOOO FUNNY! "I just threw up in here"
Then we went to Wagamama's.
Got the tube back and walked home to his. It was nice.
He got me a butterfly necklace.
Today we woke up at 12:30.
Decided to go into town.
I got a Urban Decay Heavy Metal Glitter thingy-me-bob. Which rocks the shit outta all glitters that go on your eyes. Very sexay indeed.
He bought me some leopard pumps & adidas bottoms for the gym.
And i got him some brown Etnies & a greggs pasty.
We like buying each other things even though were not back together officially.
I also got myself some wikkid indigo leggings from H & M.
I need help for my shopping and shoe addiction.
Oh and can i just say, I (Heart) Forrest Kline from Hellogoodbye. I have a secret fetish for Emo geeks. MWah!
buh-bye
xLx
-Greys Anatomy catch up tommorrow - yey!
current mood: cant believe its sunday
current music: Hellogoodbye - Zombies, Aliens, Vampires & Dinosaurs
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| Friday, April 20th, 2007
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6:32 pm - im sorry im so late.........
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HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAYS TO MINE WIFEY & LOOPY LUNI
1 YEAR OLDER LADIES & STILL BOOTIFUL
xLx
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| Monday, April 2nd, 2007
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9:49 pm - from my hospital bed
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Evening all!
My sidekick is working in the hospital so im able to write my journal before I goto sleep.
Its so hard to relax in here. One woman was throwing up earlier & I wanted to cry, it scares me so much.
Im sitting here listening to Madonnas - Who's that girl on the radio, lol. Nice comfort.
Ive stuffed my face with tea, toast & mints as im Nil By Mouth from 6am, BOOOO!
My op is scheduled for 10am tomorrow morning. But hospitals as we all know run behind (all the friggin time)
Im looking forward to being knocked out. Its weird but im not nervous no more.
Sitting here text Kat was funny. "Operation VIG" hahaha
Wish me luck.
Im so missing my Murderdoll boys. Being in touch is good. But its awful when you see them in dribs & drabs. Oh well. Soon soon.
Love to you all
xLx
current mood:  content
current music: durham hospital radio
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| Saturday, March 17th, 2007
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9:08 pm - Retail Therapy!!!!!
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Bonjour (yes i know im not french)
today has been a bad day.
ive broken up with the BF. dont worry. i fuckin bought myself back to happiness. And kat's being my shoulder. and i shall be her's.
Soooooooooooooooooooooooooo,
after the last phonecall with him.
i had a cry - as you do, then my mam took me shopping.
my starbucks *cinnamon dolce frapp* cheered me up.
and so did the huuuuuuuuuuge red shades my mama got me.
i hit MAC for some TLC....loves it.
then topshop. for the shoes, the jeans & the dress. and opened a new card so i can spend more.
went to Chanel for some bootiful nail varnish to sex me up.
and since it's Mother's Day tomorrow here - i treat my mam.
Dior Elixir & Escada perfume.
and the gorgeous Per Una dressing gown (and when she wasnt there i bought the nighty to match)
hehehehe!!
all in all, a good ending to a day of disappointment....
hooooooooooowever.
my woes are short lived cos im getting a visit from Kat on the 29th.
Wednesday 13 gig & some well deserved Wagamama...
oh yea, and probably getting fucked off our faces.
all in a days work..
hope you're all fine and not completely bored with my blabber..
toodles.
xLx
current mood:  hungry
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| Thursday, March 15th, 2007
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12:43 am - 2007
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well this is rather weird.
1st entry in a gazillion years.
hows everyone who's still on here doing?
xx
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| Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
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11:14 am - I (HEART) MUSICALS
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- HOW NICE IS A WARM CUP OF TEA, WHILE YOU WORK & WAIT FOR IT TO BE 4:20PM
I WOULD *IDEALLY* LIKE TO BE AT HOME, WATCHING UTTER CRAP MORNING T.V.
BUT THIS WILL HAVE TO DO.....
IVE BEEN WORKING OUT MY XMAS EXPENSES SO FAR.
IVE GOT ALOT SAVED & IVE SPENT SOME OF IT.
MAINLY ON PETER'S PRESENTS.
ME, HIM & MY MAM WERE TALKING ABOUT XMAS DAY LAST NIGHT.
HE'S STAYING OVER ON XMAS EVE, THEN SPENDING THE DAY WITH ME.
IT'LL BE GREAT!
FINALLY, IT'LL BE EXCITING AGAIN.
ESPECIALLY FOR HIM, HE HASNT HAD A PROPER XMAS SINCE HE WAS LITTLE, DUE TO HIM MOVING OUT OF HIS MAMS WHEN HE WAS 15.
BUT THATS ANOTHER STORY.
HE GOT MY MAM SOME FLOWERS YESTERDAY, JUST TO SAY THANKS.
THANKS FOR LETTING HIM COME OVER ALL THE TIME & THANK FOR LETTING HIM STAY OVER.
HE'S TOO SWEET FOR WORDS.
SHE DIDNT EXPECT IT AT ALL.
AND
I WENT UPSTAIRS LATER IN THE DAY & THERE WERE PEACH ROSES ON MY PILLOW, A LOVE TEDDY & A LETTER ADDRESSED "TO MY TINKERBELL"
IM SO LUCKY!
WE KEEP DOING LIL THINGS LIKE THAT.
I DECORATED MY ROOM WITH CANDLES ON SATURDAY.
AND GOT HIM A TEDDY & A CAT TO REMIND HIM OF HIS RALPH, WHO DIED!
DAFT LITTLE THINGS LIKE THAT MEAN ALOT TO US!
OH & IN OTHER NEWS:
ABOUT THE MURDERDOLLS?
JOEY SAYING HIS MAIN FOCUS IS SLIPKNOT AND THERES NO PLANS TO RELEASE ANOTHER ALBUM TIL HE'S WELL AND TRUELY FINISHED WITH SLIPKNOT FOR THE TIME BEING.
WHAT A CROCK!
HAHA!
bYe
X
current mood: happy
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| Monday, September 5th, 2005
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12:22 pm - Innfusion!!!!!
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im at work, ick!
just drinking my coffee & wishing the day would end.
the boyfriend's (peter) coming round tonight.
he woke me up with kisses down my back on saturday & sunday. bless him!
i love that he's 27 and looks my age.
and the cute faces he does & how he gets jealous.
we're all goin to Innfusion tonight.
good night out - ashley a's gettin pissed & headbangin is worth it everytime, haha!
my sister will be out too, its nice we can go out and be friends.
considering we didnt used to get on when we lived together. oh well!
nothing much to report on.
gotta sort out some venues for obsessive compulsive to play this week.
Later Potato
xLx
p.s - lube is the best stuff ever!
current mood: happy with my lover
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| Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
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3:40 pm - SHE'S ALIIIIIIIIIIVE!
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so alive,
my boobs kick everyone's ass
my boyfriend kicks everyone's ass (SeX)
Ashley dancing in a taxi and falling over was the highlight of my week
May be going to Scarborough on Saturday with my Peter
Bank Holiday this weekend
Im back at work and loving it
Fluid Lines/Plum Foolery - MAC!
Have fun, i miss you guys
<3
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| Saturday, June 25th, 2005
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8:58 pm - Hush Baby!
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Ahhhhh Yeeeeaa!!!
Crue on Tuesday, Rocked!
Me and Vix were right next to the stage on the side.
So we got cute faces from Sixx, glances from Mr.Neil and Tommy wanted to see our boobs - but we didnt
Damn : had it been after my op, i wouldve.
Next time tho, haha!!
Afterward we hit the aftershow and drank the night away.
Then headed outside where i got harrassed by a 33 yrold minger who thought i was beautiful and fabulous, lmao!
And i had fone sex, with the guy who picks up when you call a cab.
Fun things when all you do is call for a cab ;)
We hit the gay village of newcastle and partied it up.
Met 2 gay guys, michael and rich.
Theres something to be said for dancing with gay guys.
Their alot of fun.
Michael liked my tongue ring, so i let him have a go - if you get me lol.
Met a married guy called scott.
Who's a talent agent. He said i should goto L.A and call him.
Hahahaha *grabs her bags*
And that people was most of my week.
I gotta txt from stu asking if my cousin Gem was ok.
He said she was run over by a motherfuckin bus.
I hope she's ok. im waiting to hear from her brother Simon.
<3
current mood:  confused
current music: R 'n' B collection left by Lauz
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| Saturday, June 18th, 2005
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7:30 pm - CRUE CRUE CRUE!
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My crush on Vince Neil is consuming me today.
Add Nikki & Tommy to that list too. Haha!
LAst night me and Vikki saw Motley Crue in Birmingham
It was fucking amazing and worth all those years wait.
We ate sushi and got drunk in our hotel, then dolled ourselves up and hit the NEC.
Cant wait til Tuesday when their in Newcastle.
I want that Vest, dammit!
Their on top form and Mick, well being as ill as he is - he's unbelievable.
Our seats were the best.
Vince kept waving at me, so i was dancing like a motherfucker.
He and tommy said Hi after the show.
*does tommy's finger wave*
Didnt get to see Nikki which blows but we've met him before so we werent bothered as much.
<3
current mood: ecstatic
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| Monday, June 6th, 2005
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8:44 pm - updating - happier!
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Hey all!
Time for a little update.
I had my hair chopped.
It's like Ashlee Simpsons "la la" video, but funkier. Short for me :D
Im sure i'll get some pics, i owe Tairrie pics of me in her fab jacket.
Which i recieved today, aswell as some lovely extras, bless her!
Download is upon us.
CJ gets here on Wednesday.
Were going out for a drink with everyone who's travelling down together.
They being Mallan, Adam and people. They booked a Mercedes bus.
Which i find funny.
I saw Adam yesterday, for the first time since January.
He said im skinny. Weirdo.
Also, went to the hospital.
Im getting my boob job within the next 3 months.
So wish me luck.
and WOOCY - will u mail me your number so i can txt you at DL. Cheers babe!
xxxxx<3
current mood: giddy
current music: GALAXY FM
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| Monday, May 23rd, 2005
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10:12 am - Before i Forget!
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HI!
I realise how much i missed a certain guy, on saturday.
But how i might not make it when it comes to seeing him, as im still not right.
So confusing and its all happening too fast.
Caught Slipknots - Before i Forget video on sat too.
Its great, masks are off but theres still that mystery.
Even though ive been around that lot when their just chilling and maskless.
Its still mysterious for me.
Im loving Sids rings, haha - crazy fucker
And Joe's jeans, that boy still rocks my socks.
Some nice eye shots in there too.
Lets hope the teeny bopper sluts dont spray their shorts!!!!!
All i need is ONE reason to lash out and i will.
Me, Lesley-anne and Gemma hung out last night.
Its was hilarious.
Im so glad we're back in touch *thank you Dill*
We're all gonna start the gym in a couple of weeks.
Water aerobics, swimming, weight training. - heyl yea! fun fun.....
Saw Star Wars 3, it's fab.
House of Wax on friday
Mr & Mrs Smith in June.
Laura's birthday meal this Saturday.
Oh and re-making Vince Neil - what is with his girl, he sure has a way of attracting drag queen look-a-likes. I hate fake-barbie doll hollywood blondes. GET A GRIP WILL YOU.
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| Monday, May 16th, 2005
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10:56 am - i tried, to go on like i never knew you:
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HELLO.
Time for a little update.
Im feeling better this week.
It's weird, last wednesday i was sitting in our car and all of a sudden, i just felt better and the feeling ive had, that heartbroken feeling, easied up.
To be honest, i don't know what changed.
But i have a feeling something good happened with Dylan.
That made me feel better.
It also allowed me to sleep, and when i did, he was in my dream.
Somethings were a little different, but he answered some questions for me, and we hugged.
It was the best feeling.
And again last night, but that dream was strange.
I spoke to CJ for the first time in weeks on Saturday and again last night.
It was nice to catch up, i havent been much for talking lately.
And i spent ages talking to Adam yesterday too.
That was odd.
I told him the reason i declined all the times he's asked me to goto see him dj, is basically because, i dont want to see him.
And the reason: i havent seen him since January and there have been no complications. If i do see him, got knows what will happen.
And im not sure i want to put myself in that situation, not knowing how i feel about him and he doesnt know how he feels about me.
It was a long chat about what went wrong with us, and the stuff he was saying made me think maybe his shite talking is just an act.
He's actually quite bright.
But we'll see what happens.
*confused*
Its Vikki's 20th Birthday BBQ on saturday, i hope the weathers nice.
I havent seen her in a while.
I bought her gift today. I get the best presents for people me.
Ok, back to work.
<3
P.S - NICK CARTER STILL MAKES MY TUMMY FLUTTER AFTER 10 YEARS. HE'S GORGEOUS. oh yea, and i do still like the Backstreet boys. Go me!
current mood: better
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| Sunday, May 8th, 2005
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7:12 pm - Dylans Funeral.....
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Wednesday Morning:
Me, my cousin Simon, my sister Vickie and my old school friend Ashley all met at my house.
We left to goto the church at 9:10am.
There were so many people there. and im just talking about my school friends. these are the people ive grown up with since being 4.
i hadnt seen many of them for years, but it was nice to see them all there.
knowing we were all going through the same thing.
one guy, Tom - he was in my class too. he knocked me and said "sorry Lynzee" and i was asking people "who's that guy" - he's changed so much. he's really hot.
we all went inside and all our class sat together.
there were booklets given out with a picture of Dill on them, i'll treasure it.
i thought id be able to handle seeing Dill's coffin. like it wouldnt bother me as much cos i knew how small it was.
but as soon as i saw it coming, i just burst into tears and couldnt stop shaking. the choir were singing the most haunting song ever, it just clicked in that it was such a sad sad day.
all my friends were worried and asking if i was alright.
all of Dylans family followed him down the aisle of the church we'd grown up in. and it was heartbreaking to see all his little cousins who look so much like him.
The service was beautiful & the church was packed. Calla lillies were everywhere. Dylan used to draw them all the time. their my favourite flower too.
his family members spoke. his auntie mentioned his school days and friends, how he loved his trainers (which made us all laugh cos we all got the same ones in school, thats how close we all were) and how he loved to travel.
his little cousins got up and read too, it was touching!
one of his aunties started off by saying "Dylan was just Dylan" and then ended with "Dylan was not just Dylan" - which is so true.
at the end of the service, he was carried out again and i, like his other friends was a total mess. i mean, ive never been in such a state. but i pulled myself together, ready for the cremation.
Only some of us went to the Crem. i think alot of our class couldnt face it. but i wanted to be there. so i went in with lesley-ann and gemma. Nirvana's - "come as you are" was playing as we walked in.
His brother James, who's 21 got up and read "And Death Shall Have No Dominion" By Dylan Thomas. he was so brave. i dont really remember it all, we were all to upset.
i remember there was silence while we listened to Bob Dylan and then the curtains closed and Jeff Buckley's - Hallelujah played.
we all went out to have a look at his flowers, one of them had the cutest pic of him when he was 3 or 4. smiling his ass off. utterly beautiful.
i spoke to his family. took my sister to see his sister, Jade who was in her year at school and they were best friends.
we all gave nancy (dylans nana/mother) a hug and left.
Everyone met at the catholic club for drinks.
and we had a laugh about his life and how much everyone loved him.
Jade got her mam to come over and we spoke about our familys and how they knew each other. how my mam sold her my pram for Dylan and how her and my cousin were rebels.
my sister and jade, along with the girls from my class decided to tell her how me and Dylan kissed and how much i loved him growning up. haha - it was so funny. she said she could tick it off her list of things he'd done.
then we got onto sex and she asked if i'd ever well, yanno.
and i said no, but if i'd been given the chance at this age, who knows.
it was just a day for everyone to say what they want.
and Dills mam is cooky so you can expect to hear that kinda stuff.
we stayed there for hours and then we all decided to goto another pub.
so we said bye to nancy again and to Veronica (Dylans birth mother) and to Jade and James (they were coming later) and we all left for the pub.
After that it was pub after pub. everyone from the funeral.
when we got to the top house near mine.
we took Jade to see my mam. and ashley came too.
so there was me, vickie, my mam, jade, ashley and laura in mine.
we polished off a bottle of vodka and my mam got dressed to come out with us.
i got upset saying how i hope the bastards who bullied Dylan to steal shit for them, get what they deserve.
because thats whats the familys who think their hard around here do.
we then re-joined everyone and went out.
later that night,
me, vickie, gemma, liam and steve went onto a club.
we met Jade there and we all ended up having a cry.
funny thing happened that night.
remember those families i was talking about??????
well one of the members of one of those families who bullied Dylan to do his dirty work, was almost killed.
someone beat him almost to death with a hammer.
shattered skull, broken arms and legs.
im pretty sure next time, it'll be done properly.
if at first you dont succeed, try and try again.
ive gotta say, thanks again to all the nice people who've had me in their thoughts. it means alot.
this is a realy hard time for me, i know i didnt talk about him on here or anything but that didnt mean i never thought about him, or ever stopped loving and caring for him.
he was my first love as a kid. puppy or not. my first. you just dont forget that.
and its just way to hard to think i wont ever see him again.
i keep waking up expecting him to be laughing in my face.
im pretty sure he'll come and see me though.
i can still feel him around me now, so i know he's not totally gone.
my mam's worried about me. i havent really said much and havent really be eating.
i just dont feel like it, im just so tired all the time.
i didnt even goto the 1 big weekend to see the Foo's or Kasabian.
but yanno, it's only been 4 days since the funeral.
im not going to bounce back from this a few days later.
it'll take time.
current mood:  numb
current music: Jeff Buckley
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